I didnt know what else to title that. But seriously life is funny sometimes.

I just found out that a man that I still love very deeply, his sister is pregnant. That is Wonderful NEWS! . He is going to be an amazing uncle. I wish I was there to rejoice in the news with him.

I would have married this man and still would til this day. I know he still loves me very much and will always love me. He is and always will be one of my very best friends in this entire world. I trust him with my entire heart and soul. I will not name names but you know who you are.

Other then that. My life has been crazy busy!. I'am working at Sears Auto Center right now and learning EVERYTHING about cars. It's very fun and exciting for me. I dont get paid a ton but thats retail for you. The large corporations get the pleasure of choosing to pay very very low hourly rates to people who actually work very hard to please the public to the best of their ability. Retail is one of the most challenging jobs in the world if you think about it. It has a variety of jobs within one job title. You may be titled Sales Associate but along with that you are their gopher, assistant manager, sometimes you work longer then the store / assistant manager alone. You deal with all different types of personalities at work and outside of work when dealing with the public. Sometimes it can be rewarding because you did once in awhile end up helping someone.
I have a new years resolution. I will be looking into training to become a certified child care provider through Lucas County. Classes will need to be taken but I know I can accomplish this in very very little time.
I dont know if I shared this with anyone but Amelia is back home now. I'm never going to let her go again.
This is going to be a very very nice Christmas. We have an adorable little tree and pretty gifts underneathe it. Santa Clause is coming tonight and Amelia is very very excited.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to Everyone.

Sandra and Amelia

Hello Friends,

Well lets update everyone here. I'm not sure how to start all of this mumbo jumbo. This is a very serious topic and if anyone has any advice other then what I have done thus far, please tell me.

On September 16th. Amelia Angel left to be with Nana in Magnolia, Texas for a week and a half just to have Nana and Amelia time. September 28th rolled around and when I called to collect the flight information from Nana, Nana proceeded to tell me that she was not to return Amelia, orders given to her by her son, my ex husband Brandon. Amelia Angel has been gone since September 16th. It is now November 5th. She is now living in Alexandria, Louisiana with daddy illegally. The divorce decree has been broken, and the law has been broken on his end of the story. He has hired an attorney here in Toledo. I have an attorney as well in Toledo who is trying to convince him to fly Amelia back to Toledo to be with me her mommy. His lawyer is supposed to call him and try and talk some sense into him otherwise he will be getting arrested for kidnapping.
He has also not been paying child support. He has not been calling me either fully knowing I do not have long distance right not to talk to my baby.
GOD , my heart is hurting so bad and I want her to come home so bad. All of my money is going to get caught up on bills and to pay another attorney over the current situation. I owe money to a divorce attorney and now I'm gonna owe money to custody case type attorney from Ohio.
I still have things I have left in MInnesota that I have been trying to get back to get from Keith's place and Keith's mother's place. Since Amelia has been gone, things have been spinning out of countrol financially. Luckily Jasmine a friend of mine will be able to bring some of Amelia's baby pictures and wedding pictures that I had stored at Keith's place. He's just gonna have to sell everything else and if he wants to he can keep the profit because right now all I care about is Amelia's return and of course her very personl items, her birth certificate etc... . Some of her toys but I've been having to buy her new ones since I have moved here. Unfortunatly Keith is in financial needs too and is unable to mail me anything else that is for Amelia. I can completely understand that. I'mjust worried I'll never see her baby pictures again etc... All fo those personal things.
I'm more worried that I'll never see my baby again. If anyone has any feed back as to how to get my things over here from MN and finally once and for all relieve Keith from storing it all. Or if anyone has advice to give me other then what I have done, which was hire an attorney to take care of all of this. I haven't even paid her yet but I"ll be oweing her money. GRRRR!!!.
Well thats just me venting and seeing if anyone has any advice to give at all. Something I may hve not thought about maybe to do in order to get my Angel Baby back home to me.


God Bless Everyone,
Please pray for us.

Sandra

Hi Everyone I just wanted to share with you that I have started yet another new buisness. I"m no longer selling AVON. Check out my new site www.freedomathometeam.com/40587366 Let me know your opinions and if you are interested and getting brave and doing what I do and enjoying what you do for work why dont you just embark on a new adventure with me on the same TEAM! and have fun like I do!. Keep in Touch!

Sandra

Well my New Year did NOT get off to a wonderful start. Jeff and I had a HUGE fight and he went over to his other house to sleep with some blankets. Everytime we have a huge fight he brings up comments like Keith said this to me about you and Brandon said this to me about you and I have no clue as to what he's talking about because Keith has told me himself that he has never spoken to Jeff. I know Brandon has so I'm pretty sure Brandon has said some things to him but he doesn'tcount he's my ex husband. Then he threatens me about how I'm gonna lose my daughter in the mist of this fight which consequently broke me down to tears and my entire body was shaking. He knows what buttons to push and he pushes them. With that being said I really feel as if he really doesn't love me at all. That he's just living with me and putting up with me and thats it. That must be a tough thing to do, that must be pretty stressful for him to do. He's just using me and the putting me down when he feels it's okay to do so by making comments such as "it's just common sense" etc... . No one I have ever dated has said these things to me, I have had more respect then this from everyone else. Shoot I'll take Keith and anyone of my other boyfriends back RIGHT NOW over Jeff.
I'm hoping I get child support SOON so I can save some of that money and put it away in case Amelia and I have to leave again due to our living situation here with JEff. I'm praying that Jeff will just move out so we dont have to move again.
Well thats it for now. It's now the year 2008 and my New years resolution is this: no more putting up with bullshit from men or women in my life. I want people to be nice to me and to treat me with respect. If I can't have a man that can do that to me then I'd rather be alone with Amelia then share a life with someone that claims they love me. And doesn't pretend to love me.

hopefully more positive things will come of this tomorrow January 1st. HAPPY NEW YEAR FRIENDS!

Sandra

I have not typed here in a long time. Not sure when my last one was. But here's an update everyone!.

Noah puppy will be 8 months old, Kaiser is 8 years old, Toby dog (boyfriends dog) is 4 years old, and Chester bird is now 6 months old. Amelia left and went to her nana's house in Houston for a week and a half. She will start pre school at "Toddler School" when she gets back on October 1st. We are going to Cedar Point on Sept 29th with Amelia, an event hosted by my boyfriends workplace.
Things are going okay for now. Nothing to report really. I sell Dish Network and am in search of something that pays me hourly instead of just commission. Other then that things are going well. I will post something later as things progress in life. Just keeping busy trying to put my roots down again. Thats all. I will keep you all posted. I hope everyone is doing good!

Sandra
Stay blessed always!

Well as some of you may know I had adopted a GORGOUS AKC Registered Black Lab. I call him Noah. He is now 6 months old and absolutely LOVES to taunt Kaiser Cat. Poor ol Kaiser. This dog loves me soooo MUCH!. He's a lap dog! I dont even know how much he weighs at this point but he is getting so BIG!. He adores AMELIA!.
We had a bit of an accident two days before my birthday. Amelia and Noah and I were out playing in her sand box. It was time to come the house and start Amelia's bath and get her ready for bed. Kaiser usually hangs out right at the back door looking out at everyone at the yard. Jeff had JUST gone inside to go upstairs. I had gotten AMela inside. Was working on herding the dogs inside when Kaiser just got IRRATE and overly Irritated! with Noah. I happened to be standing between the two of them which of course is a bad place to be when one animal is upset at another one. Well I got attacked by Kaiser. I have BEAUTIFUL bite marks all over my legs. I have about 14 of them. The paramedics had to come because Jeff thought I was gonna pass out. I thought so too. But since the bites were superficial I'm okay. Just keeping them all very very CLEAN! since cats carry bacteria. The paramedics said to get rid of Kaiser and one of them said to put him to sleep. Jeff agreed that maybe I should put him in a shelter. I chose to keep Kaiser because in my heart I know he was meaning to attack Noah and in the mist of anger and annoyance and irritation he thought was attacking Noah but after a few bits on my he had realized he was attacking his mommy and he had darted off into the basement to be alone for awhile while I attended to my wounds/injuries. Later that night he came to bed with me and curled up next to me and licked me like he normall does and basically profusely apologized and showed he felt bad for hurting me. I have forgiven him and he knows it. He is here in my family to stay.
I love my cat. I love my puppy and I love my bird. Everyone in this house is a part of my family. NO matter how mad one gets at one another and how hurt one may get. I know that the intentions were NOT meant to intentionally purposly hurt me. Kaiser Kitty is here to stay and so is Noah Puppy. Amelia loves everyone one of them Noah and AMelia are like brother and sister. She's always tattle tailing on Noah "NOAH get out of my sand box!" "NOAH, licked me" HA!.
I'm alright though my legs ache and itch alot but I'm alright.

Forever friends with all of you your clumsy, kind hearted animal lover friend , Sandra

Sandra

Just wanted everyone to know I'm doing even MORE exceptionally well!. I have two three more people signed up under me now YIPPEE!!. I feel like such a success with this company!. I have two very enthusiastic new team memebers who are making such an amazing start in their buisness. I'm so proud of them!!. If they ever get onto livejournal I'm going to jus tstate names right here. Jessica and Teschelle! GOOD JOB GIRLS!. Ok thats it I guess.

Sandra

Well FINALLY we made the trip to Ohio. It took us longer then we expected, mainly cause Chicago slowed us down at RUSH HOUR TRAFFIC. After a two weeks of being here at my friends house I have had a job for one week. I dont like it much but it is money to help pay the rent. I do however have to get a second job on top of selling Avon. I do have free child care due to my friend being an ANGEL and taking care of her so I'm able to work and save money.
I found the GORGOUS little first floor one bedroom duplex. It is an old house and it sbeautiful!. Thekitchen is tiny but itis old with LOTS Of cabinets with gorgous handles on the doors. I have an actual dining room and living room. I have LOTS of closet and storage space. I'm allowed to make any changes I want to the first floor of the duplex. I can change the floors if I wanted too but I wont. That would take away from the character of the house. I will however put a fresh coat of paint on it and install some doors to separate the dining area from the living area. It has a little back yard with a garage. One side is mine. I share the duplex with a very kind man who lives upstairs from me and owns the entire house.
I will be adopting a beautiful 4 year old yellow lab for only $25.00 this coming Sunday. Fully potty trained, can speak, sit, lay down, shake , knows how to paw the door to tell me to go out and go potty. Her name is Sadie. Her family is military and cannot take her with them. hey already have two ther yellow labs. So in addition to adding this dog I have my Kaiser Cat and my Chester bird. My animal family is complete!.
I will feel much safer knowing I have a large dog in my home. I was going to have a puppy that my girlfrend had originally bought for me to have a little house I was GOING to move into. BUT the home became unavailable to me so she ended up falling madly inlove with it and it is a complete and total mamma's puppy to her. I can't take that away. She'll be right down the street from me anyways.
Well I'm tired and have LOTS to do. I move in around July 1st.
I miss everyone ! and Ihope everyone i know from LJ is doing well.

LOVE ALL OF YOU AND MAY GOD BLESS YOU EVERYDAY!

Sandra

I just wanted everyone to know that I"m doing exceptionally well as a new representative in Avon!. I have sold over $200.00 on the C-8 brochure and I'm almost over $100.00 on the C-9 Brochure!. I have 6 people interested in selling Avon under me and if they are successful in their sales then that would put me at Unit Leader and I would then get a piece of all of my representativs's sales!. If anyone is interested in selling AVON it is only $10.00 to JOIN! and it's alot of fun to sell. I'm my own best customer!. If your interested in recieving a brochure give me a call and I'll mail one to you or deliver you one with a free sample!. Or if anyone is interested in selling then call me and I'll connect you with my director and you two can talk about he opportunity and just SIGN UP!. When you sign up you are constantly a discount Avon shopper too!. For the first 4 campaignes you get $50% commission on all sales including what you buy!. Talk about one luxury about being your own boss right?.
My number is 763-412-2279 Call me if you would like a brochure or if you are interested in selling and doing what I do!.

Sandra Ash
763-412-2279
Independing Direct Sales Representative

Hey Everyone,

My final hearing for my ending marriage is this Friday. I know sound the violins. BUT... . A part of me feels a HUGE lift of bricks off of my shoulders. The other half still loves him so very deeply. I think that he regrets it a little bit that he finally followed through with the divorce. I get to have full custody of Amelia as originally agreed. Things really dont change to much with the agreement other then I get less for child support then what he was sending me a month. I get a hundred dollars less then what was originally being sent to me. Now I'm living in poverty. Yes not everyone who is an entrepreur is made of money especially if your a NEW entrepreneur trying to get a buisness started.
I guess I can say I'm blessed to have such wonderful friends and aquaintences sorounding Amelia and I. I have friends in the Unitarian Church, I have friends I have made through my boyfriend, I have friends I have made just from selling Avon and cleaning houses. What can I say, I know whats good for me and that is continuing to network with good people who have kind hearts. I dont know what I'd do if I weren't such a hard headed hard worker. When I decide to do something I usually fight it until the end and I get what I want. SOmetimes it's not a pretty fight but I still get what I want in the end.
I got my daughter full time and I LOVE that!. My biggest fear was that I wouldnt have her full time and I'm not sure how I could live without her. It's nice to have some breaks when she does visit her daddy. BUT boy do I miss her immensly when she is away. What can I say, she's my side kick. We are very , very close she and I. Sometimes I think my boyfriend gets jealous of our relationship. If he's so jealous then why doesn't he try to have a baby with me and we can share a child together that has his blood and my blood combined, a creation we would have made together. He doesn't have so much control over Amelia. He thinks he is Amelia's daddy sometimes and he knows he's not but he really really wants to believe that he is. I said to him to show me where his name is on her birth certificate. He had nothing to say to that.
I just can't believe I'll be officially divorced on Friday the 13th. It's hard to believe. I know I've been separated from him for two years but for those two years I still felt a connection with him even though we were from two different states. He's in Louisiana and I"m here in Minnesota with our 4 year old baby girl.
WHen Fridy rolls around I"M really not sure how I"ll react. I dont know if I"ll cry or jump and down because it will finally be over. If I cry it 's because I know that I"ll always have love for him and I'm sad that what we did have we couldn't workout and keep the marriage strong. IF I cry I dont know how to make Keith understand why I"m crying over the ending of my marriage because I have told him and many other friends of mine that I'm glad that it's over. A part of me isn't glad, a part of me really really wishes that we were still a family, but we are not anymore, we are separate and it will be legally separated/divorced this Friday. Keith wants to celebrate my divorce. I'm not sure if I'll feel like celebrating. I guess if we were to celebrate, we could celebrate a new beginning to my life a fresh start, but that would be all we would be celebrating.
I will probably always feel love towards Amelia's daddy/ex husband. I dont think that, that will ever go away. So whoever it may be that I'm with in the future, Keith or anyone else if it's not Keith. Thats something my heart will have to compete with. Hopefully my heart will truly and beable to fully extend the feeling of love to the person I'm with rather then it having the feeling of competing with the man I created my baby with. I know that sounds confusing, shoot I confused myself with that.
Well whoever reads this hopefully will see and understand what I'm feeling and why it sounds so darned confusing. This doesn't mean I have no love for Keith. I have love for Keith. I just feel like for a year my heart has been competeing with two men, Brandon and Keith. I'm with Keith and I love Keith but I still Love Brandon very much too. BUT my marriage is ending. That doesn't mean that my feelings for Brandon have ended. That will take time, my feelings for Brandon may never end and the feelings for Keith will eventually have to drown out those feelings over time.

I have began a new buisness. I do light house cleaning and some child care since Amelia isn't quite old enough to hit pre school yet. She turns 5 on March 1st. I have an incredible set of sitters I send her too for those days. Unfortunatly all of what I get paid or half of what I get paid goes to them HA!. Welcome to the real world of being able to work but having to pay a sitter due to the fact no one is able to watch Amelia for the times that I have to go to do the work. My boyfriend works from 3-11:30pm. Idealy if I had a client in the morning I wouldn't have to worry about giving all of my pay or half of my pay to a sitter for caring for Amelia while I worked. Right now I clean for an incredible couple who are really easy going and very friendly. I feel so lucky to have met them. Even if one day they choose not to use me anymore I'm hoping we can keep a friendship relationship going afterwards. She has referred me to I believe her mother in law. I offered her one free hour of cleaning if her referral hires me to clean their house/apartment. She referred me. I hope she calls because I would really love to give her one free hour of cleaning.
For those looking for affordable light house cleaners my fee is $12.00 an hour for apartments and $15.00 an hour for houses. You can call me for a free consultation and meeting to see your home to estimate how long it would take me to clean your home. Then we can set up a first cleaning date. Keep in mind if you like what I do and how it is done I offer a free one hour cleaning on my next visit to your home if your referral hires me and I do their home.
Luckily for the child support my ex husband is willingly sending due to the fact it is not court ordered yet I"m able to pay for a sitter on those days and keep the pay I get which pretty much makes up the amount that I probably would have to pay to them. Depending on how many jobs I do in one day or a week it would take half of my pay to pay the sitters with each payment I recieved for each job. Luckily my last hearing for my divorce is April 13th at 8:30am in the morning. It will be a telephone hearing for me. My ex will have to physically be in the court since he initiated the divorce. That will be expensive for him OUCH!. I really dont have alot of sympathy for that. He wanted out of the marriage so bad, he's paying for all of the trips to see Amelia and all of the trips he'll have to take to a hearing now and in the future if he has complaints or wants.
Anyways didnt mean to rant and rave about the BIG "D". All I want from him out of it is in the end Amelia is taken care of financially and emotionally from his end. She's got so much love coming from both sides of the family. She's quite a lucky girl as far as love is concerned. As long as he keeps in touch with her and visits as often as he can she will grow up well. We as parents can teach and mold to the best of our abilities but at some point in our lives and their lives god for bid! they do have to think and make informed decisions on their own without our guidance or our need. Granted we'll always be needed. I still NEED my dad and I still NEED my mom. Either way I know I"ve been unleashed from the NEED of my parents for a few years. Especailly since I've been a mommy myself. I feel it is easier to raise her by myself then with someone who dissagrees with my parenting ways and cannot compromise and come to a middle ground with me on some decision that we have to base on for her. It is best for her if I raise her alone and she visits daddy and he has his set of rules at his home and she comes back and follows my set of rules. Over time and a few years she'll learn to accept that both homes are different but understand that both parents love her equally. The homes are just run differently.
I have raised her with good manners and I constantly get complimented as to how polite she is at 4 years old. She was saying her pleases and thank yous when she turned 3 with very little asking of her to do so. I"m so proud of her. She is really smart, beautiful and very talented. I'm going to enter her into an activity called "Toddler Tumblers" So she can meet other children her age and make friends and I can network some more!.
My boyfriend had an excellent idea of my volunteering at the Animal Humane Society. BUT I hate to break this to him. The downside is that I do have to work either a part time or a full time job and actually get PAID before this divorce is final or before the last hearing.
I had a temp job at a facility called Alliance through Aerotek Staffing. I really enjoyed it there. I was doing data entry work and I really enjoyed it. Did I say I really enjoyed it?. Unfortunatly due to prior commitments/appointments I had made when I accepted this job from Aerotek I lost my job only after a week or working there. I had to do take my daughter to the doctors one day which caused me to be into work late. Then I had taken her into an appointment to get her pre tested for public school and that caused me to be late as well. I even called my temp work AND left a note for the supervisor at Alliance to let them both know double that I was running late do to those prior commitments. My daughter does come first over work. I think a small part of that was inaccuracy on the data entry. According to a friend of mine that works for Alliance they are strict on attendance. I even got those two days approved through my employer from Areotek. She got it approved from the supervisor. Oh well whats lost is lost. They lost a good person to do good data entry work. I have been applying for those types of jobs, light office work, filing, customer service etc... . No such luck. I keep getting scam mail from companies that probably aren't even companies that send you large amounts of money in a cashiers check/or check and want you to deposit it into your bank account then immediatly cash it then western union it back to them with you keeping a percentage of 10% or 20% for yourself. Seems nice but I know for a fact most of these things are scams. Especially since now adays you can print checks right off of your computer. BE CAREFUL PEOPLE DONT BE NAIVE!.

Well thats it for now I Have to pick up my boyfriend soon from work.

WIll be writing later. IF ANYONE KNOWS OF ANY ONE WHO IS HIRING FOR LIGHT OFFICE OR CLERICAL HELP EITHER FROM A HOME BUISNESS OR COMPANY PLEASE E MAIL ME I DO NEED MORE STEADY WORK BEFORE APRIL 13th to show I 'am working to my lawyer. IT LOOKS BETTER!.

Living with me can be like an adventure sometimes. I stand behind that a hundred percent. Not many people can say that they can live with me in a peaceful way. I'm not easy to live with at all!. I have told my boyfriend countless times that I"m not an easy person to live with. I like things a certain way. I like things getting done a certain way. If it's not done a certain way I'm not happy. I told him that if he cant handle me then we aren't meant to be together. Apparently he's able to handle me just fine. I applaud the man that can handle such a difficult person such as myself. I'm no bitch although I have shown that side a few times when I'm upset. BUT when I set my mind to something to get something done around the home or in general, you'd better bet your bum I"m gonna get it done THAT MOMENT. I think thats one of the things my boyfriend loves about me. I keep him guessing. I keep him thinking "whats gonna happen next". My ex husband had a hard time handling that. I have this independence about me that is so addictive to others. People tend to follow in my foot steps and admire some of the things I choose to do in my life. I do love life even though life can be crappy sometimes. I love life even more now that I have a little girl to watch grow up right before my eye's. I get to watch her learn, create and use her imagination. It is so rewarding in everyway that you can imagine.
I'am an extremely strong willed person and I tend to scare away people sometimes because of some of my persistant ways of doing things. If I find it to be an important issue to talk about or to do I will push and push and push until it gets done. Thats an attribute that is either liked or not liked it depends on the reciever.
I will not change. I stayed quiet for 4 years in a marriage and was a house wife and a mother. I speak my mind now and I dont hold back as much as I used to. I'm still a mother but I"m not longer a quiet house wife. I no longer bite my tongue.

I had always used to question why life was still so exciting at age 4. Now I'm 30 years old and I look at my little girl who just turned 4 years old and I realize how everything is still very new to her still.
Seeing the sun rise is still a new and exciting thing to her. Seeing a full moon is still very new to her. Seeing beautiful flowers is still new as well. Think about it. She's only been in this world for 4 years. Thats not that long. I have been in this world for 30 years and have experience many things new and old and have repeated quite a bit of them. Even though I'm 30 years old I still have yet to experience millions of other things that life has to offer me.
My little girl is everything to me. I could never imagine not waking up to her cheery little voice saying "look mommy, suns out". Or her saying "Mommy, I'm hungry".
We celebrated her 4th birthday. We celebrated the fact that she has lived a good strong healthy and happy life for 4 years. We pigged out over Davannis Pizza with friends and family and enjoyed "Little Mermaid Cake" the party was a big hit!. The kids played one game of BINGO and then she got birthday gifts!. I got commended over and over again as to how well the party turned out and what a good job I did, considering this was the first party I really threw for a child of my own. I was extremely satisfied when it was finally over and things were cleaned up. I was looking forward to enjoying sometime watching Amelia enjoy her new toys and spending time with Keith in the evening. I had alot of fun and I had hoped that everyone else enjoyed themselves too. Everyone LOVED the cake!.
Happy 4th Birthday Amelia!.

There are three of us here. Three people who love eachother so very deeply. Life can be quite the challenge in this small space that we share. To be honest I dont know what I would do if I didn't have these two people crammed into this home of ours with me. I feel our love is so strong and powerful, I think maybe because it's hard to walk away when we are angry at eachother. We are almost forced to talk about the issues at hand and not run away. BELIEVE ME I'm known for running from my problems, if I can avoid a problem I will try my hardest to do just that.
I never asked to be here. I have a strong but firm belief that we are here for a good reason. I never thought that I'd fall in love in the process though. I love this man in my life so much that I really have a hard time seeing myself leave for any reason, even though when he gets angry he threatens me to get out of his apartment and live some where else, then apologizes later for being so mean. My friend calls it "the honeymoon stages". There is some truth to that.
I admit I'm not easy to live with,ask my family and ex husband, hence the pre fix, EX husband. My last hearing is going to be in April and the divorce will finally be over. That stress in my life of the hearings and court etc... will have finally ended until my daughter gets a little bit older and things occasionally pop up that need ironing out in court. Other then that, I can finally wash my hands of my life before completely. I know that my ex husband will be a part of my life forever because of our daughter.
The man I'm with now, I can say that he is my best friend and much more then that. I can tell him anything! and it feels so free inside of me when I can. Although I feel he doesn't listen to me over half of the time because he doesn't seem to be able to make constant eye contact with me. His eye's are either rolling to the right or the left looking at other things while I'm talking to him. Then he gets upset withmebecause I tell him I dont think he's listening. THen I prove he's notlistening by having him repeat what I had just said, and he can't repeat it half of the time. I dont know. He has said that he wants to marry me. But these little things that come up while we communicate shows me that he isn't ready for what I call "marriage material" When he can show me that he can listen to me and prove he is listening some how some way and make eye contact with me then I will seriously consider marrying this man. I dont want to commit to someone who I feel I have to fight for their attention towards me because I KNOW they aren't listening. I have already said "YES" to him for his future proposal to me. Im in no hurry to be engaged to be married. I'm happy where I'am. With him and Amelia right where we are right now. My heart is content.
I do love this man so very very much and I'm so happy he is back in my life again. There is still a very strong and special connection I have with him because I had the chance to know him many years ago too. I feel lucky that God found him for me and guided me to him to meet up with him once again.
Thank you God for bringing him back into my life,I'am forever grateful to you.

I'm sure a lot of men out there have the hardest time thinking of really creative special ways to propose. Sometimes it takes a women's imagination to tell you she invisions a proposal should be to make it memorable and special.
Here are a few thoughts I have had that I don't mind giving away for FREE!.

Thought number 1.

Call that Dahliyla Show on the radio and dedicate a song that you two share or a song of meaning to you and propose over the radio. Make sure she knows that you are making a dedication to her otherwise she may not be around to hear you propose.

Thought number 2.
SCENIC

Take her to the park in the spring or the summer and have a picnic! how FUN is that?!.

Thought number 3.
SCENIC

Make reservations at a bed and breakfast for the weekend. Tell her that you want to take her away for the weekend just the two of you to do some really fun things that the two of you enjoy. In the bedroom and in the morning I suggest either popping the question by waking her up with the ring in your hands holding it and saying something along the lines. " I'm sorry I had a really hard time keeping this to myself last night. I fought with myself all night with excitment and fear and all of those emotions that most men feel before they ask the woman they want to marry them. "GOD you always look so beautiful in the mornings with your hair all a mess and that dried up drool. You always have a look of peace when I watch you sleep. I want to be able to see that every morning for the rest of my life. WIll You Marry ME and be mine always?" I guarantee a shocked look, possibly tears of joy and the answer "YES"!!!. You dont have to say what I said, Who knows it might be even better if you say it differently or do it differently. Just an idea.

Thought Number 4.
SCENIC

Reserve two horses to go trail riding on the beach or up a mountain. When you reach a certain place regardless if it is a beach of a certain height of the mountain. IF there is any flat terrain, use the picnic idea on Idea number two. Lay a blanket down. Help her down from her horse. "I suggest eating first" mainly because after you propose to her, she may be to excited or shocked that she will have lost her appetite all together.

I have tons of other ideas for proposing. I keep telling my boyfriend that I should have been a guy with all of these ideas I have. He says that I have him beat with these ideas!. I just consider myself to be a very romantic and creative type of person when it comes to people I know and love.

For those out there that are thinking of proposing this month or this year. Good Luck and I hope some of these ideas HELPED!

Until Next time!
Chow

A lot of us either have someone to share this V Day with. Or some of us don't. I say to those who don't. Send yourself flowers! or buy yourself chocolates. Remind yourselves how much you love yourself!. Recognize how special you are!. You don't need someone else to recognize that about you.
Although I do feel that it is your partner's responsibility in the relationship as well as your own to recognize how special you both are to each other on Valentines Day. EVEN IF SOME PEOPLE DON'T LIKE BUYING and GIVING GIFTS! (AHEM!.... clearing the throat). Sorry that last comment was towards my wonderful Boyfriend. If you are like him then I"d walk very cautiously around your spouse or girlfriend on this day because most women take this day very seriously!.
Women LOVE to be acknowledged for working so hard everyday especially if your a MOM!. Mom's don t get a lot of respect or recognition for how hard they work to raise children. Especially those who go to a job daily PLUS come home and do child rearing after work. I guess that's what Mothers Day is for every Year. To recognize the hard work we do as a mother to our babies at home and to recognize how much we love our jobs but to realize that it is most of the time a Thankless job and it is endless work. There is one thing though that no one can replace. It is a smile or a little laughter from a child you beared and you love and adore each day. It is the excitement you hear in their voice when they scream with happiness after they have learned something NEW!. NO pay Check can ever replace that!.
Just a reminder to all of those good gents out there this month. This is the month to really get creative and ROMANCE your woman!. C'mon SEND flowers to her instead of bringing them home. OR Bring them home!. GET some PASSION GOING THERE , GET that FIRE burning!. You know what I"m talking about. If you can't afford anything, make her dinner!, do the dishes afterwards too! TREAT her like a QUEEN/a PRINCESS that evening. Don't let her lift any finger. SHE works hard enough as it is being a mother and a wife/girlfriend, don't you think?. I know you work hard too. I acknowledge that men work long and hard hours. My man had a CRAZY schedule with his work but he still finds ways to come home and make me feel so special every night even if we have a little argument he still has a way of making it so we don't go to bed angry.
I didnt mean to have all of this sound like a lecture or anything. Just reminding all of you men out there how special Valentines Day is to women mainly.
Oh yeah, another idea I have to give out to you men. IF you live with your partner. Buy her chocolates in that heart box and in the morning you get up before her/wake up before her and grab the chocolate and lay it next to her on the pillow with a card. Gently wake her up with a kiss and she will be very pleasantly surprised. Just a thought!. I have a ton more ideas where that came from HA!.
Good luck this month for Valentines Day. Plenty of time left to make that day special and creative for your girl!. IN the mean time Happy Valentines DAY!

Sandra

I took my boyfriend to my church for his first experience at a Unitarian Church. He seemed to like it but is still unsure of it. He says that it's not really a religon. I'm really not sure of what to think of that comment. Maybe someone out there can give me some insight or some advice as to how to explain it better to him so that he will enjoy attending with me on a more regular basis. I told him that this was a really good way to meet people who were not extremely conservative when it comes to religon. I signed us up for circle suppers which I"m cooking forward too as soon as we get a phone call!.
I warned him that the services held at the church are not normal services that speak of god and Jesus all of the time. That some are about political views or rights of passages etc.. . The good for people of the people etc.. . . Sometimes we have services about different beliefs but not alot. Atleast now with my experiences.
Oh well we'll see. Does anyone have any suggestions as to how to make going to church with me atleast some what enjoyable for him?

Thanks

Sandra

The man in my life treats me with kindness and gentleness every day. He loves me unconditionally and tells me I'm the one for him all the time. He tells me he loves me everyday and I hope that never stops. He brings me flowers once in awhile to show how much he truly loves me. I 'am the luckiest woman alive right now because I have so much love that sorounds me everyday. I dont know what I would do without him in my life. I'm sorounded with his love and support everyday. He says that I'm everything to him and that I'm perfect to him.
Well I think he is perfect for me. I love him more and more each day.